I went to one of our home track meets today and I realized I really have no desire to run track next year. Wait, maybe I do. I can't decide. Part of me is watching all the sports this year and missing doing them like I did in high school. Another part of me is adjusting to just doing intramurals. I have to admit it's intimidating to be somewhere where the girls are better then me at many sports. I don't mean that in a egotistical, arrogant way. All through high school, though, I did receive many honors and awards for excelling in whatever sport I happened to be playing. It's very humbling getting stuffed by another girl in basketball and knowing the best time in the 100 meter for girls today was 12.5, which is a whole second faster than my PR in high school. Here people are smarter, faster, funnier, cooler, and prettier. I always feel like I have to compete, and in some cases, that feeling is supported by the reactions those people get from others. I hate feeling inferior and I know I have no reason to. But! there are times when life is discouraging and you get in a funk.
It's time to get out.
I wish I could go on a road trip somewhere, anywhere.
About Me
- abigail
- Fresno, California
- like an apple on a tree, hiding out behind the leaves....you picked me.
2 comments:
I am planning a road trip to the north rim of the Grand Canyon and Utah. Funny you should mention it. Here is a map
babygail, just you wait!! the trip of the century in a few whiles. :) i know how you feel tho. it's time. :) it's go time!!
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